During
the days of blaming others for my own lacking's,
I woke up with NO power. NO energy. NO motivation.
NO hope. NO vitality.
Why?
Because I had no power to change anything!
Why? Because it wasn't my fault! I absolutely
GAVE AWAY my power to change my circumstances.
I was where I was because of her and them
and it and those and...and...oh, who's listening
anyway!
Then
one thing dawned on me. There was a good
reason I was keeping myself from moving
forward. There was a reason why I made sure
that I held
back on life.
There
was and always is a
REASON why I stand in my own way.
FEAR!
That's
why. I know, some of you big guys out there
don't like the notion that you're afraid.
So it'll be our secret, OK? Like it or not,
fear is always at the base of our holding
back and not running toward what we want.
And...fear is probably the reason why something's
not "coming together" for you
right now. It has much less to do with your
excuses 
than
you may want to admit <insert Rob
bashing here if you wish>.
I've
spent most of my life finding ways to NOT
succeed while making my appearances of trying
hard. As ridiculous as it may sound...I
was scared of the process of succeeding!
I mean, this place of familiarity is SO
comfortable! And so predictable! And so
low-risk! And so...and so...MILES &
MILES AWAY FROM MY GOD-MADE POTENTIAL &
FROM THE ABUNDANCE THAT I DESIRE!
What
are you afraid of? That's your goldmine
waiting for you to come explore and discover.
It's in the thing that you fear that you'll
find your power. For me I've found freedom
in BEING OK with who I am right here and
now. And in that OK-ness
I'm watching my fear of "failing"
relinquish its slimy grip on me.
I'll
just come out and tell you (without even
knowing your name!) that you have designed
your entire life around avoiding
the things you've defined as most fearful
and most painful to you. And here's the
million dollar secret...the things in life
that you continually avoid and steer clear
of have to do with you
facing some part of yourself. You facing
what you don't want to face. You facing
the side of you that you think is Ugly or
Unlovable or just plain ol' not good enough!
It's
an Illusion
that keep us trying to swim upstream. We
think that we're avoiding what we need to
avoid to be happy, and yet it's that very
thing that we're avoiding that will open
the door to our happiness!
