Here's
what helps me keep my ladder leaned against
the right tree.
Whenever
I feel an upset AT someone or at something,
I now make a different choice than I did before.
There was a time when I reacted
to what "they" did and my conversation
became all about THEM or IT. It can be whittled
down to "they got my nanner, and they wont
give it to me!". My being consumed or even
focused on OUT THERE on the heals of an upset
was a sure sign that I was looking for "out
there" to do what I needed for it to do
to make me happy.
Heck,
every time I got upset at my wife, it was just
as if I was shouting to her...
"WHEN
ARE YOU GONNA START DOING
LIFE MY WAY SO I CAN BE HAPPY!"
She didn't have my joy. Never did. And my
continually trying
to get it from her kept me from enjoying &
loving her!
THIS IS HUGE!
Nowadays I choose to feel the upset and take
charge of my placement of focus & attention.
I no longer make my upset (or my joy)
about her. Whoa, what a huge weight lifted
off love!
"Hey now, that's
why we get into a relationship...to be happy!"
Right! And there's a world of difference
between experiencing your own joy in the relationship
vs. trying to
extract your joy from your partner.
My friend. Your joy is inside you. It's been
there all along. You've been totin' it around
with you like a backpack you can't see!
Where you ask? Where inside you
is it found? For now have faith and know that
it's there. Underneath all the stuff you've
piled around it. Let's gently and gradually
remove the stuff. Layer by layer. We need
not be in any hurry. Heck we have years of
layers to peal! You've been very busy building
walls around you to keep others from
seeing in and, yes, even from keeping
yourself from seeing you.
For now trust me...the journey on the way
back
to you is a very exciting one full of
great views and plenty of rest stops.
Your joy is reclaimed on this traverse back
to you, as you remember who you are and what
you love. As you return to integrity. As you
once again resume the self-imposed permission
& freedom to BE
YOU. And in that state of BEING YOU you'll
fall madly in love with the New (old)
you and madly in love with the Master who
created you in such brilliant fashion.
And then you'll notice that
life around you begins looking like you always
wanted it to look back when you were trying
to force it.