Life.
We're doing it upside down and backwards I tell ya.
Whatever
I grab onto squirms away, yet I keep grabbing.
And
whatever I push
away comes back and sticks to me like glue! And
yet I keep pushing!
Whatever
I try and control
ends up controlling me.
Whatever
I run
from chases me and whatever I chase runs away
from me!
This
life is backwards & upside down! Or..
Or...
Or
am I just doing it backwards & upside
down?
Everything
in my life affects me and molds me into who I am.
Umm...or at least that's my excuse. We carry a belief
that our inward happiness is a product of our outward
circumstances ("out there" makes me happy
"in here"), but quite the opposite is true...
It's
like a big mirror for me. In other words the source
of my inner joy or upset has nothing, zilch, zero
to do with my environment. Quite the opposite, my
environment is shaped by my innards!
Man,
I think I just heard computers all over the world
turn off after that statement! Only the brave are
still with me!
My
backwards approach to life keeps me doing life in
circles like a dog chasing his own tail. My belief
that "out there" affects "in here"
keeps me trying to control and manipulate things and
people, thus keeping me victim
to them (wow!). My belief that I can "own"
anything or anyone keeps me pushing
them all away. And my belief that I can actually outrun
any part of life keeps me bumping into it around the
next corner, just like a bad rerun! And yep, the belief
that I can herd
love into my coral (by use of flowers or force)
keeps me waking up lonely day after day.
What
insanity! I've been trying to put out the fire with
gasoline!
Let
not your heart be troubled my friend. This is all
very simple. We've just done a marvelou job of making
it complicated. We come by it honestly, really. We're
not to blame, right? I mean, we learned when we were
rug rats to GRAB when we wanted something...
